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I bought the book. I'm a self-help junkie now.
http://pathpartners.com/products/survive-your-wifes-midlife-crisis
This little book changed my life. I understand my path through this now. Guess what, being a mopey angry desperate confrontation dick does not make my wife want to come back to me. I needed a book to understand that. I need to get my own shit together, be happy, get healthy, reconnect with friends. Let her go. I cannot control her. She want to be away from me. When did I become an obsessive controlling suspicous psycho. Not sure. Time to get over it. I'm not perfect so we argue a few times during the week. She continues to go out. Just now she stays out late, is with who knows who. No texting, no checking in, no consequences. I am struggling to belive she is not fucking this guy. I cannot stop thinking about it. I discover her phone password. A few texts here and there, but she continues to delete entire threads with him each time through the door. I want to know. I don't want to know. I struggle to remain calm and "be happy". I am trying to be strong, not be a pathetic pussy. My wife calls me a "loser" because my plans for a drink with a friend falls through. She's going out of course, to the dinner party we were both going to. We argue. Fucking stupid setback. I cannot control her. She wants her space. Let her go. Let her figure it out. She will come back. Or so the books says.