realization

I realize today that all the scrifices and comprimises I made to ensure that she is happy, did the opposite. All the struggle and resentment and anger from the past 10 years had the opposite effect. The more I made her the center of my universe, the more I drove her away. The way back is to find myself, remember who I was before becoming consumed by her. Nothing was ever enough. I gave every ounce of power I had. And instead of being grateful, she hated me for it. I am too much for her. She cannot be solely responsible for my happiness and unhappiness. "Get a life", she says. She's right.