it's nothing

Realization today that she chose her relationship with him over her relationship with me. Fucking him or not, I'm not sure. Does it matter anymore? The more I pressured her about him, the more she lied, the more secretive she became. She saw him again and again. Until the big confrontation. The ultimatum, she cannot she him again. Her response. She left. So now she has the freedom to see him as much as she wants with no consequence, no questions, no obligatory sex just to shut me up. She circles the truth now. Oh he might meet us, when in fact he's driving her there. She looks at his Facebook profile every day. She deletes her texts to him each time she comes through the door. She's changed her phone password yet again. Probably has changed it a dozen times in the past two weeks. Yep, nothing to hide. Just a friend. It's nothing. So if it's nothing, why didn't she just say, ok I see that me hanging out with this guy is freaking you out, it's nothing, I'll stop going out with him. If it's nothing, why lie to me again and again. If it's nothing, why did you chose to leave me instead of stop seeing him. If he is nothing, and you chose him, what does that make me. What's less than nothing? Invisible. Irrelevant.