have fun
OK, things ended tonight on a good note. No questions, no comments, no discussions tomorrow morning. Laugh if she brings doughnuts. Eat a bunch of them. Do not text her all day unless it is a reply. Tomorrow is trivia night, she will be out with him. Don't even ask. Let it go. It doesn't matter. Talk about your great workout, your bike ride, your stupid work crap. Do not ask for her help getting ready for our weekend trip. DO NOT ask her if she needs help getting ready for her NYC drunk fest with her friends. For the love of god do not let on that you are wondering if he is going. She would tell me right? Don't offer to let her go at 7PM. Furthest thing from your mind. Oh right, trivia night, forgot about that. Sure, it's OK if you want to go a bit early (and spend time with him instead of your children who are desperate to get time with you or your husband who you've wounded and abandoned). Make an extra effort to get the kids laughing. See what a fun happy place our house is? See how fucking great I am? I can handle this crisis with a fucking smile. I can control my anger and sorrow in front of the kids. I can loosen my grip on you. You are not solely responsible for my happiness. You go get drunk with your stupid friends, I'll be here being a kickass dad. Laughing, reading, planning our weekend adventure. Lighten up on the kids. Do not say "fuck" to them. Stay calm. She will start to wonder, why the fuck is getting drunk with these strangers so important to me. Why I am missing my kids lives. Why am I doing this to my husband? Why am I fucking up our future together? Why was I so desperate to escape my house and my family? No kiss goodbye. No hug. Do not even touch her! Shower, shave, wear a shirt. You are not fucking exhausted or burned out from sleeping two hours a night. You are full of energy. Do not mope. Do not let her feel sorry for you ever again. Head up. Smile. Make her wonder why the fuck you are so fucking happy. Do not ask her to text you later. Tell her she looks great. "Have fun. Hope you guys win tonight! See you in the morning." There is an alternate explaination for all 50 signs that point to an affair. She is not fucking him. She is not fucking him. She is not fucking him.